Unfortunately I can't breath under water

water element

A shadowless future pouring out of my mouth. I've been there where existance is an empty staring through a window where the sadness isn't acceptable and forgivable.

Surprise surprise

Last weekend I took some pictures of my mother, while visiting my granny. Yesterday following my huge curiosity I developed the film and barely waited for it to dry so I can scan the pictures. Luckily it is summer and it doesn't take a long time for a film to dry in this heat. When I started scanning and editing the images a conversation, I had with John just a week or two ago, came to the surface of my mind. We were talking about photography, nature and inspiration. Of course about some things we agreed about other - disagreed. But John said that it would be good if I reconnect with my pictures and feelings from the time when we met - me, Alek and John. My instinctive answer to him was, that I don't know how to do that and I am not anymore what I was before. Well yesterday while I was looking at my last pictures I had the feeling of "SurpRisE SurpRisE" and may be I am wrong, may be I just wished I can take a picture the way I was doing it back in 2010, but when I look at the follwoing ones, I just can't stop this "surprise, surprise" flickering in me. 

It all started

So I have a new blog connected to my first Etsy shop :)))) I am very excited about it and I will be very happy if you take a minute to visit it.
Blog: http://alex-malex2.blogspot.com/
ETSY shop : http://www.etsy.com/shop/alexmalexdesigns?ref=pr_shop_more

And my most recent pictures of my friends Fox and Kris :) Love you, girls <3

Wild wheat

Meanwhile nothing is straight right or on focus

Click the photos to see them on a darker background

Going backwards

Some pictures I took while I was in Greece last year. I think I haven't shown them before... I have this thing to look through old photos, when I am wondering how to develop a new film. So having no clue how to proceed a cheap foma 400 led me to those images.

the sound of clock ticking

I had a dream about a man with eyes coloured like a sky behind a chimney smoke. His look disappeared in the clouds of time and the ticking of space...

Arms

Curtains

I don't know where my curtain obsession comes from. But I checked out my folders and found out I have quite a lot of pictures of things and people behind curtains. I guess I just like lace structure and can't really resist it :D

A very real story

Years ago I read a nice short story written by Julio Cortazar called "A Very Real Story". It is dedicated to the signs and warnings we recieve in our everyday life and our inability to understand them. When something interesting and almost impossible occure we can't accept it as something happening just here and now, without a story behind and a future infront. This morning I woke up from a dream in which I was meditating, seeing and feeling myself as somebody absolutely not connected to the false side of reality. After that dream I felt very well, washed the dishes, drank my coffee, thinking should I turn my subconcious experience into something big and dramatic, should I see my dream like a step forward to something. Well no, not after remembering Cortazar's story :)

A Very Real Story – Julio Cortazar
It happened that a gentleman dropped his glasses on the floor, which they hit the tiles, made a terrible noise. The gentleman stoops down to pick them up, very dejected, as the lenses are very expensive, but he discovers with astonishment – that by some miracle he hasn’t broken them.
Now this gentleman feels profoundly thankful and understands that what has happened amounts to a friendly warning, in such a way that he walks down to an optician’s shop and immediately acquires a leather glasses case, padded and double – protected, an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of, etc. An hour later the case falls, and stooping down to recover it without any great anxiety, he discovers that the glasses are in smithereens. It takes this gentleman a while to understand that the designs of providence are inscrutable, and that in reality the miracle has just now occurred.

mess often turns out to be a very logical way of existing

The funny thing about mirrors is that even if you turn them upside down, you'll still be reflected with a head on the top of a body.

Clementine

"i wish i was a little more delicate"
Sarah Jaffe

literalism and a picture of Alek

Да изплачеш облаците в теб,
солта на всяка капка да ти напомни
за неспособността си да бъдеш прозрачен.
Стъклата задържат ужаса ти,
как да се погледнеш в тях - разкривен образ,
размит на този неправилно определен като втори план.
Но ако пространството около нас е вода
и от време на време се поддаваме да ни усмихне слънцето,
какви други да бъдат душите ни освен облачни
и как по друг начин да станем едно с кръговрата си
освен да се изплачем.

Bro

My brother has a birthday today :))